I'm a happy mom.
James and I have completed "how to play with toys not mom and dad's stuff" boot camp. He is still James, but has rediscovered his legos, 'struction site trucks, and fort building instead of take apart the house, destroy, and waste.
Most noticeably different, however, is my attitude. I've rediscovered self care in a way that is changing my attitude toward motherhood. Not just physical care, but mental, spiritual, and emotional care. For everyone reading this who has seen or talked to me recently, you would be surprised by how much you do for me, just by being my village. My world of people.
Family mission statements are where it's at! I had no idea what peace and joy would flood into my mothering as a result. Instead of closing my eyes and pointing in a direction each day, I have a clear picture of what is important to our family burned in my mind. The unimportant things fall away and the things that matter to our little Austin and Tikla Fife family are at the forefront.
|This was taken moments after he walked right into the reflection pool|
Even good ideas and wholesome things can become overwhelming distractions from the true direction we are headed. Our goals are messy, authentic, striving. Best of all they are in phases.
I good friend shared a quote with me:
"We are human beings, not human doings"
That rings through my head as I take time to just "be."
Then there's this powerful affirmation from Jeffery R. Holland, "You are doing God's work. You are doing wonderfully well."
When I sit next to a pile of deliberately dumped crayons gently insisting over and over, that yes, James, you do need to pick these up, no you don't need help, no your fingers aren't broken, you just went potty, and you may have a snack after and only after they are picked up and he writhes on the floor while poking the nearest crayon with his pinky inching it slowly toward the bucket. I can chant in my mind, "I am doing God's work" and suddenly that tedious task, is shown in true colors. I am teaching accountability, work ethic, boundaries, proper care of items, persistence, breaking down a task into manageable steps, obedience, and probably more. What a meaningful, important way to spend my afternoon.
I can sing "popcorn popping" and read "hand, hand, fingers, thumb" for the bazillionth time and know that I am doing His work. The work He would do in our home if He could be here with us physically every day.
The best part, is when I do these things, with singleness of heart, with purpose, He is here.
Our little Isaac had a birthday!
The busy, adorable, once in a lifetime, and yes sometimes terrible, twos.
We deliberately didn't invite any of James' friends to the party since some of the favorite games they play often involve picking on Isaac. (insert stern mom face) It was super fun to get to know the families, of Isaac aged friends, better.
He inherited my enthusiasm for opening surprises. No matter what was under that wrapping he was giddy about it.
He loved all the attention, "bayoons" and blowing out the candles. He has been an expert blower for a while now. ;)
I'd say that makes the stuffed animal party a smashing success.
There is comfort and sadness knowing this phase will end. He is still such a baby for all his big boy-ness and probably will be until his little sister arrives. I'm holding on to it for as long as possible.
His plea for "a kiss and a hug," the way kisses fix "owies" instantaneously, the way he says, "uhhhhhh, nope!" or "SURE!"
The way he interrupts conversations with James to carry on his own with as many words as he can remember from James' and then throwing in a few things about birds and trees and bears.
Today at the park he saw some adorable white fluffy puppies on a walk with their owners and he pointed and begged, "mama! Cuuuuuute, dog, I kiss them??" That and waving and calling out "hi!" to every neighbor on the walk there.
He is in a sweet spot right now. His mischief is predictable. Washing his hands with the whole bottle of soap, suddenly reclining the couch when you least expect it, unloading the knives from the dishwasher, taking off his pants (and diaper), giving his bear a bath in the sink, throwing food, dumping liquids, stealing James' toys, getting out of bed, and sometimes he will wake up from naps on the wrong side of the universe,
but let me tell you. This boy will go to nursery or be left with a babysitter without a fuss. He loves people. I dropped him off to a play group with a huge dog the other day and he gave me a kiss and said "bye mama!" He is a champion snuggler.
|I peaked in the room to find him out of his crib, happily doing an alphabet puzzle. I couldn't even be mad.|
|"James take a picture of us being cute drinking this."|
|I finally got some paint for the kitchen with a little sheen to it, I was sick of trying to scrub food off matte walls.|
This hilarious cast of characters goes on adventures with him in the stories we make up.
So lately, he will involve Grass the bunny as the authority in situations. "Sorry mom, I can't go to primary class today, Grass the bunny put up a sign that says, No primary today." or "Grass the bunny says, we need to make cookies today because he loves cookies."
Oh and the ever hilarious use of the letter "y" at the end of words to illustrate his mood. "Mom, I'm feeling very orangey right now. Can I have a clementine?" or "I'm feeling Curious George-y," "reading time-y," "milk-y" etc.
|inspecting the mud on his shoes|
|"Can't go to the library today mom, I've got some work to do."|
|"mix mix mix mix"|
These are wonderful days. They won't last forever, but I will never forget them. This is my glory.